Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.


It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?


Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.


Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.


We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.


And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.


As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.


by Marianne Williamson

Fashion Week

I find fashion week completely bizarre. Where else do they take beautiful stick figures, put horrible makeup and hair on them, and make them walk in front of hundreds of people, wearing the oddest combination of clothes possible?


Although I do appreciate the creativity of the spectacle, I don't really understand it. I'd much prefer to see beautiful women of all ages, shapes, and sizes, walking down the runway looking gorgeous, in something I designed, that flatters their body type. This is my dream anyway.

New Beginnings are Scary!

"Because," she said, "when you're scared but you still do it anyway, that's brave."
Coraline by Neil Gaiman


I've always done what other people expected me to do, been who they wanted me to be. Today I am saying no more. It is my life and I'm going to live the life that makes me happy.

Living life according to other peoples' standards has done nothing but make me miserable. So I'm going to take some time, figure out what makes me happy, and then I'm going to pursue it. You may not agree with some of the choices I make, but please respect that I have the right to make them.

I have a long exciting journey ahead of me. It will not be easy, but it will be worth it in the end. You are welcome to join me on this road or cheer for me from the sidelines, but be warned if you are negative or try to control me, I will leave you behind.

I am searching for myself, not someone else's idea of who I should be. Any advice that is unasked for, will most likely be ignored, no matter how well intentioned it might be. I do promise to ask for help though if I really need it.

Faith and the Mustard Seed

The interesting thing about the mustard seed isn't really it's size necessarily. It is the fact that such a small seed becomes such a huge plant. A tiny amount of faith is turned into this enormous plan God has for your life, but first you have to step out in faith and trust Him with your future.

I find it funny that my strongest gift is faith, and although I trust the Lord completely with taking care of my needs and my future, until this year I didn't trust myself and I chose the path of least resistance. Now I know better and am making the changes necessary to ensure my future growth and happiness.

 ~ things I have learned this year ;-)

Mustard Seed

Matthew 17:20

New International Version (NIV)

 ²⁰ He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”

Mustard Tree 

Mark 4:30-32

New International Version (NIV)

The Parable of the Mustard Seed

 ³⁰ Again he said, “What shall we say the kingdom of God is like, or what parable shall we use to describe it? ³¹ It is like a mustard seed, which is the smallest of all seeds on earth. ³² Yet when planted, it grows and becomes the largest of all garden plants, with such big branches that the birds can perch in its shade.”

From a Caterpillar to a Beautiful Butterfly

I used Paint to draw this, this morning. It really makes me wonder what I could do with a graphics tablet and photoshop.

I've decided that butterflies are my theme for this year, two of my birthday cards had them on it. Plus they fit well with the journey I'm undertaking, to become the person I'm supposed to be.

*Side note...every once in a while something like this pops out of my head and completely blows me away*

I'm Braver Than I Believe

"Promise me you’ll always remember: you’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” ~ Christopher Robin


About a week ago I wrote a letter to someone who had meant an awful lot to me growing up, but because of circumstances and immaturity on both parts, we had lost touch. To my surprise a few days ago he wrote back, and actually answered a question I'd wanted to ask, but didn't, which was "why". I'd waited 18 years for that answer and I'd never have been able to read it, if I hadn't been brave enough to finally send the message. 


If there is anything that I've learned this past year, it's that you've got to listen to what the person inside you is saying, and that I'm my own best therapist. I've made more progress this year then I ever did seeing a"shrink", though I've had to face some uncomfortable truths along the way. 


Now I just have to motivate myself. Ah well, Rome wasn't built in a day!

I swear this is like food porn ;-)

Make Pizza Without Dough